Hiati - that is so not a word!

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#1 - I'm sick of doing this in Icelandic.
#1a - Actually, I'm just sick of having a rule that this should be written in Icelandic, because obviously I'm not doing it in any language. Let's hope this fixes that.

#2 - I was thinking maybe I should wait and make it a full year with no posts, but it turns out that the last one was in July 2005, and I kinda want to write something right now.

#3 - I don't really know what I want to write, and I'm hesitant to put in anything about personal stuff. Would be very unprofessional of me to write about Convergys and frustrations here, and the same goes for the singing and choirs. Honestly, I think the main motivating (or un-motivating factor) is that I wouldn't want anything to come back and haunt me.

You know, that kind of gets me thinking. When I was a kid, I used to read those 'Choose-your-own-adventure' (TM) style books, and I'd always try to hold my last page, in case things didn't turn out the way I'd hoped. But of course, I have to make a string of decisions and hold multiple pages to have a safe path back. I've often thought of that as a bad sign, showing my inability to make decisions and stick to them. But now I wonder if maybe it has some positive effects. I do have the tendency to hedge my bets, to cover my ass. I try to think of as many possible outcomes and interpretations before I do or say anything.

Of course, that brings me back to the fact that that behaviour has really hurt me when trying to find a romantic partner. I go a bit overboard, especially when the emotions are running high, and get too invested. So I plan out the conversations and choose the ones I want to have based on the scenario I've imagine. Sometimes I wish I weren't so thoughtful and careful.